Nourished

Switching gears for this post today and focusing on health.

About 6-8 months ago I started having pain in my hands and feet. At first, I didn’t want to believe that anything could be wrong with me. I have tried to be healthy most of my adult life, so there couldn’t possibly be anything seriously wrong with me right? By Christmas, I could barely open my presents my hands were so swollen and sore. At that point, I realized that this needed a doctor’s attention and I would not be well on my own. I tried to keep a positive outlook through the process of blood work and doctor’s appointments but there were moments, I felt defeated. I felt sorry for my son, robbed of a healthy mother. I felt sorry for my husband whose wife isn’t in tip-top physical condition. I felt sorry for myself that I couldn’t pick up any exercise I wanted.

After two months in limbo, I began to pray earnestly that I could see my referred specialist soon. I was physically and mentally at a breaking point. God answered, in two weeks of my prayer, I had an appointment and a diagnosis. I have Rheumatoid Arthritis, an autoimmune disease that attacks the joints.

Recently, I logged into the patient portal to view the notes that the doctor had written and to see my labs. I read this “appears nourished”. That word struck me, nourished. I know the meaning but I wanted to look it up anyway because it spoke to me on a very spiritual level. Here is the definition.

Nourish- verb- 1) provide with food or other substances necessary for growth, health, and good condition or 2) keep (a feeling or belief) in one’s mind, typically for a long time.

While I had allowed some defeated thoughts during this time; God had still answered my prayers and my physical body was still nourished. I was not forgotten or forsaken. I know that my illness is not in vain, I’m not sure what His will is through this, only that I must follow Him. God will nourish me through this process and through His word.

I pray this blesses you.